In response to Amethysts latest post

When I read your post about the suicide, it reminded me of something that I did not post in my story. Maybe because I hate to remember it. When I was 14, my brothers always played basketball with my cousin next door to us. I remember the day all to well. They played then came home. The next morning, my cousin was found dead out in front of his house under a tree with a gun in his hand. His dad was the one to find him there. He had killed himself. It was over a girl. He had found out that his girlfriend of 2 years was pregnant and she had told him that she was going to have an abortion and he lost it. He left a note and thats how we found out why he did it. He told her that he didnt want that and she did it anyway. He was only around 17. The pain that it all causes is terrible. I feel so bad when I hear about anyone having to deal with it. I know that I personally, not that I like to admit it, but I was pretty close to committing suicide not too long ago. I am very fortunate to have alot of support from friends. Poor Joey listened to me many many nights as did my sister in law. I was even to the point of telling my sister in law that if anything happened to me to make sure that my kids were taken care of because I trust her and my brother that much. I know that alot of people feel that the people that u meet on the internet are just that. I will argue that because I have met some really amazing people that one day I hope to meet.